Light of The Dawn

There was a time when darkness swept your spirit

And you got tangled in a wave of fear and sorrow

The waves circled you in a monstrous invasion of emotions

You struggle to smile, to laugh, not wanting to give in to your inner monster

But deep down you are hurt, hating yourself, not knowing where to go

Inside, you are dead. Dead from surroundings. Dead from people... And silence is your best friend

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You survive everyday by the good ol' memories

The ones that make you smile, that wakes you up everyday telling you,

"Hey you are still worthy! You can do this!"

You survive by words of kindness and sweetness 

Telling you - you are more than just a living soul

And then you survived the day, waiting to face the next terror on the day after

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The clock goes ticking, and suddenly the darkness open its wings

Smiling down under, the reality checks in

Whispering and chanting, eating you from within

No more positive vibes, only a rotten soul waiting to be seen

Eating your strength, passing through your veins

Till the tears finally broke free

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As you sit and endure this painful, subconscious lullaby

To which, no body understood why;

The mind starts to overpower your emotions

Good versus evil, white versus black, up versus down

A whirling battle to convince the soul

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The ever-changing solitude finally come to senses

Dear you, have you forgotten Allah's promises?

"Be sure we shall test you with something of fear and hunger, some loss in goods or lives or the fruits (of your toil), but give glad tidings to those who patiently persevere" (Surah Al-Baqara, 155)

The promise of paradise for an exchange of perseverance

Control of emotion for an eternity of jouissance

Have you forgotten that my friend?

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Oh Allah, how did I become a servant to your creation?

The sky, the earth, the air and even humans

Are all your creations; none are above your sanctity

They don't deserve my self-pity

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My friend, always remember this

"Allah does not charge a soul except (with that within) its capacity..." (Surah Al-Baqara, 286)

Allah knows your potential, He knows your limits

He's the 'director', He knows your needs

No matter how dark the sky can be

No matter how deep the ocean is

The sky can always turn blue

The ocean can always lost its dark hue

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*** To those reading this, I wish you all the best in life and may Allah ease all your struggles.

Fate is God's way of showing you His creativity. 

Deal with it with an open heart because every tests come with blessings in disguise.

Always count your blessings and the love surrounding you.